If you're interested in having an elevated heart rate, unrestrained sweating, and steady panic for hours upon hours, I have an infallible formula for you.
Take a one-year-old on an airplane across the country by yourself.
You could also throw in an eleven-year-old, who will argue that she's old enough to roam the Atlanta airport WITHOUT YOU, and that she doesn't need to ever take off her headphones or eat anything that grows in the earth.
Trust me...you will experience all of the unpleasantness.
But, once you arrive all the way across the country, you'll be filled with an explosion of happiness that will nearly make you forget about all of the stroke-inducing stress. Nearly - some trauma never fully disappears.
Here's what happened: when we decided to move to TN, I promised Sissy that I would one day bring her back to Oregon to visit all of our friends. That "one day" came sooner than I anticipated. But a promise is a promise so off we flew.
We had a delightful 10 days out West. We spent the first half of our trip at my sister's place with cousins. It was just like old times but also different. A lot changes in a couple of years during puberty age. Like forgetting how to smile for a photo.
We had such fun hanging out and laughing. We went to an immersive art experience called Hopscotch. There were cool light displays and fun interactive exhibits.
We visited the wooden troll.
We walked around downtown and had snow cones and hit up the library.
Sissy played video games with her equally obsessed cousin.
We ate delicious food. So much delicious food.
And we just enjoyed each other. We talked and laughed. We swam in the pool at the hotel and shattered the lid to my sister's glass cake stand - oops. We played games. We went to the park and had a picnic. We were together and it was wonderful.
In addition to being wonderful, it was odd being back in Oregon. We lived there for 9 years. It was the only home Sissy ever knew. But being back felt different. It was familiar, I knew how to navigate everywhere without GPS, nothing had changed in the surroundings. But I have changed and it didn't feel like home anymore. I felt like a stranger in a familiar place. It was odd. However, closure accompanied the oddness. I have felt some guilt about moving Sissy all the way across the country to a new home, I've missed my dear friends, and I've longed for the beauty of the Pacific Northwest. In the depths of my head, I've sometimes wondered if it was the right choice for us to leave Oregon.
Being there confirmed that it was right to leave. It was time for us to write a new chapter. But I will always be grateful for the years we had in Oregon and the friends we made there. It will always hold a piece of my heart.
But, wait! What about all of these friends I've been rambling on about? Did we visit any of them?
I'll tell you next time.