Did you think it was amazing that I gained 6 pounds in one week? Maybe you thought it was appalling. Are you impressed that I lost 6 pounds in one week? Maybe you’re still appalled. You’re so hard to please.
Thanks to a combination of hard work and illness, I’m back on track. It’s a good thing because I was on the edge of sanity for a few days there. I’ve discovered through this process that my mood is directly related to the number I see on the scale in the morning. My self-esteem is entangled too much with my weight, and I need to reconcile that. It’s a dangerous mindset. I’m finding now that even though I am really close to reaching my goal, I’m starting to obsess that I need to lose more weight. I feel like I don’t look like I thought I would, and instead of being excited about my progress, I’m disappointed. I need to appreciate what I’ve accomplished and stop looking for the greener grass. It’s hard to stop focusing on my faults. I'm trying to remind myself that 13 weeks ago, I dreamed of being the weight I am now. Yet, somehow, I’m not satisfied. That’s not healthy. Time to look at fat pictures and savor the accomplishment.
Anyway, can you believe you’ve been listening to me babble about my weight for 3 months? You need a hobby or something!
- Week 13: –5.8 lbs
- Week 12: +3.4 lbs
- Week 11: Bye, due to heavy denial.
- Week 10: –0.8 lbs
- Week 9: –1.0 lbs
- Week 8: –1.2 lbs
- Week 7: –0.4 lbs
- Week 6: –0.6 lbs
- Week 5: –1.2 lbs
- Week 4: –3.6 lbs
- Week 3: +0.8 lbs
- Week 2: –1.8 lbs
- Week 1: –2.2 lbs
Total weight loss: 14.4 lbs
Holy crap, man! Less than 5 pounds to go! Or is it grammatically correct to say fewer than 5 pounds to go? Hmmm…
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