Parenting Woes

I’ve mentioned before that I was certain I would have no problem being a parent.  I have also admitted that I was terribly mistaken.  Terribly mistaken. I have been a parent for 2 1/2 years now and I regularly feel like I’m screwing it all up.  I especially feel this way when Eva does the following:

• Shouts, “No way!” at me.
• Ignores me when I ask her to do something.
• Deliberately pees her pants.  
• Kicks and screams.
• Watches TV before noon.
• Eats 5 packages of fruit snacks for breakfast.
• Takes Selfies.

However, sometimes I feel like maybe I’m not a complete failure. Maybe I’m not turning Eva into a spoiled, self-absorbed turd.  Maybe.  I do get a boost of confidence when Eva:

• Tells me she loves chocolate.
• Wants to read books.
• Asks for more broccoli.
• Gives me hugs and kisses.
• Prays.

I also find satisfaction in seeing her be creative and independent. She plays in the dirt for hours.

Or builds a tower with pantry items.

I also love seeing her be kind to other kids. (Finally)

So I don’t have it all figured out yet.  I’m sure it will become easier the older Eva gets.  Especially around puberty. 

At least I can take comfort in the fact that even if I screw it all up, someday she’ll have a husband and be his problem. 

Poor sap.